Suicide into the Light, Part 2

A family which has lost two young adult sons to depression, one through suicide, and one through an accidental opioid overdose has been working with me to heal from these tragedies. My role is as a healer. In this role, I have served as a medium. I do not call myself psychic, because I work with Archangels who make this healing process possible, even on the “other side.”

The first son who died, hanged himself, and then, when contacted through me in the presence of his mom and two sisters, he apologized profusely, having immediately regretted his decision as soon as he got on the other side of the veil, in the astral realm. He chose to become a Being of Light, who serves the Light by seeking out and assisting lost souls in darker astral realms.

This son, the younger one, has assisted the older son since he crossed over, and yet, the older son seemed to be having more difficulty in the astral realm. The mother called me again a couple of weeks ago, because she had a dream in which the older son was not doing well, and was in a place with only “dim lights.” The dream caused her to feel extremely concerned about him, so she asked me to channel again.

I asked archangels to open a channel of healing, though I told the mother that I was not sure what would happen, since I had just had another channeling experience with a suicide victim who was difficult to reach at first.

Once I had said my prayers and asked the archangels to open a channel of healing, at first I did not get much, only darkness and the color red. After talking about what I was seeing for a few minutes with the mother, though, I found out that the dim lights she had seen in her dream were red. Encouraged by that revelation, I mentally sought after the older son again, and then saw him in a very dark place, but glowing as if alight from some invisible light source.  He was holding a bright blue square, which also seemed lighted by some mysterious, yet invisible light.

(As an aside, he was very smart in his earthly lifetime, and had been pursuing a PhD in engineering.  One comment he made to me during this other-worldly conversation was that “It turns out that mathematics is the language of the Universe.” Somehow, he had learned that on the other side, in the astral realm.)

We had this conversation, about a number of different things. I don’t remember all the details – that can be hard when channeling. We communicated about the blue square he was holding, and he was obviously very excited about it as he told me about it.

The blue square meant something important to him, as though he was going to build his way out of the darkness with it, so it was one part safety blanket, one part hope for escape, and one part sense of personal empowerment – believing in himself.

I believe I invited him to go towards the love and light. He replied that he didn’t believe in love. He explained that a family member had robbed him of fun, and that robbing him of fun meant also depriving him of love.

I shared this with the mother, also explaining to her that I had long ago resisted this idea that fun was as important as love when it was first introduced to me many years ago. I now realized that, for many people, especially children, giving them fun makes them feel loved. Perhaps for myself as well, but I had lost sight of that. Since I was learning this important spiritual lesson about fun bringing a sense of being loved, I realized this conversation was real, and could in no way have come from my own imagination, nor could it have been my own projection. It was his reality, and a very real connection for us both.

Somehow, telling me about his experience of being denied fun and love must have helped him with his own internal healing, because a few “moments” later, he looked at his arms all alight from an unknown light source, seeing them as I also was able to see them, brightly lighted in the midst of darkness. It was as though he was contemplating how they could be seen when there was no external light source around him.

All of a sudden, he declared, “I am light!”

How beautiful! How perfect a thought! And how true that is. I thought of the writings of Paramhansa Yogananda, who taught that there is so much subtle force/light energy in each of our bodies that any one of us could light up the city of Chicago.

With that realization that he is light, he began to rise. Watching him, I rose with him, as though we were both rising up from the bottom of a very dark ocean bed. We rose and rose, and I realized that we were rising to higher and higher vibrations where there was more and more Light. We rose up through what appeared to be ocean water, near to the surface with greenish water and increasing turbulence, and then up into the well-lighted water near the surface.

And then, we broke free and rose through the surface of the water and came out on top.

There, standing in white robes on a white surfboard, smiling in anticipation of his brother’s arrival, stood the younger brother filled with light. Once on the surface, the older brother started to put his blue square down as though that would enable him to stand on the surface the way his brother was standing on a surfboard.

But the younger brother took hold of the blue square, tossed it, and exclaimed, “You don’t need that anymore!”

Then, he grabbed his older brother by the shoulder, and led him away, walking on the water. I watched as both young men strode boldly across the water of the beautiful green ocean, and then the younger brother said, “Let’s fly!” And off they flew into the miraculous “air” of the astral realm.

What a view! Vision – whatever you would like to call it; it was like watching a movie in my Third Eye, or Brow Chakra – the Mind’s Eye. What a happy ending to a painful saga!

I learned two important lessons: that fun is an important way to help people feel loved, and that We Are Light. All of us. We are made of God-stuff, the Light of the Divine; our souls glow, even in the dark.

May you find the Light of your souls, and may you glow, even in the night of this dense earthly realm – on mountaintops, in basements, wherever you are, may you glow with fun, and love, and joy, and Light!

Love and Light,



About selfrealizationtherapy

I am a healer, life coach, author, and spiritual teacher. While I am ordained in the Christian tradition, I have also studied Eastern spiritual disciplines and practices, including Raja Yoga Meditation; Intuitive Coaching; Reiki; Falun Gong; and other forms of energy healing for both people and animals. I am available for distance healing and spiritual coaching via phone, Skype, WhatsApp, or Facetime; please email me at: to schedule a session. My goal is to assist you in connecting with your Higher Self to find fulfillment, peace, health, and happiness in life. I typically work with people for about six weeks, and then they either take classes with me and advance more, or simply go their happy way. While I cannot guarantee results, many clients find that in a few short weeks, more is accomplished than could be with years of traditional talk therapy. Born on the equator in the Democratic Republic of the Congo, I grew up moving back-and-forth between Africa and the United States my whole childhood and youth. We lived in three different countries in Africa, and three different states in the USA. I now live in Maryland, close to Washington, DC. I was widowed at the age of 28 when my 34-year-old husband died suddenly of a cerebral aneurysm that hemorrhaged, leaving me with an infant and a toddler. This crisis led me to believe that God loves us even when "bad" things happen, and also led me to pursue spirituality and become a minister. In 1996, thanks to "Autobiography of a Yogi" by Paramhansa Yogananda, and a meditation class called Raja Yoga, I started on an Eastern spiritual path, a journey which included becoming a healer and a mystic. On Thursday, May 27, 2010, I experienced what I call an Enlightenment Vision, in which I ascended and was blessed by Ascended Masters of many faiths: Master Lao Tzu, Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Jesus Christ, Lord Buddha, Paramahansa Yogananda, High Priest Melchizedek, Lady Kwan Yin, Master Usui, and then by the Seven Archangels of the Seven Rays. After this vision, the teachings in Higher Consciousness began. Apparently, my crown chakra was opened, and direct contact with the Ascended Masters has been possible ever since. My message to everyone is: this is possible for you to achieve as well, although getting there is not necessarily quick or easy. With a Master of Divinity degree from Vanderbilt University Divinity School, a Master of Public Health degree from the University of Texas Health Center at Houston, and a Bachelor of Science degree in psychology from Texas Christian University, I perceive a unity in my readings in Eastern religions and in Biblical studies. As a result, I believe the original message of Jesus Christ was and is a call to Self-Realization, which may also be called following The Way (a term used in the book of Acts by very early "Christians," although they did not call themselves "Christians;" they called themselves Followers of the Way. The Way, or the Tao consists of the practice of peace and love in every moment, honoring the Divine Presence within ourselves as well as within others. The Way of early Christianity was a spiritual practice which similarly focused not on the material world, but on the practice of Divine Presence within the earthly realm. When we practice The Way, or The Tao, we become one with Divine Peace, Love, and even bliss. When we attain this, we experience the "Kingdom of God" or Reign of God, within ourselves, Nirvana or possibly Samadhi. Achieving this Way within each of ourselves is the only way we will be able to usher in the Reign of Divine presence among us all here on earth. The ultimate goal of The Way, and of Self-Realization, is the attainment of unity with the Divine Consciousness, or Buddha-Consciousness or Christ-Consciousness, within, and beyond our normal mortal mind. This Unity-Consciousness is eternal, but begins in the here and now. May it be so.
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