Today, as I began to practice the I AM as a mantra, I became aware that the essence of I AM is to bless. The awareness in my head became that, if I AM going to be I AM, then I exist to bless others. In other words, the activity of I AM in this world is blessing. As I AM, my purpose is to bless others. When we live the I AM, there is no need to be concerned about whether or not we will be blessed, because the focus is continually on blessing others in our mental level, but the larger presence of I AM is also always intending blessing for us as well.
In the I AM, there is no need to worry. In the I AM, there is no need for fear.
Existing for others is a blessing, for as we bless, so are we also blessed. To discover one’s identity as someone who blesses others can take awhile to develop. I dropped that consciousness for a moment last night, while walking home very late from the DC metro, having walked over 10 miles yesterday, and feeling a little tired. Nonetheless, I also felt very light and energized, because I had not eaten much food (I know that sounds counterintuitive – but I had been at a spiritual event for several hours, imbibing spiritual food – prana, living water, Logos, chi, the bread of life, the Word.) Even so, I had a moment of dropping the smile of peace and bliss, only to see a young man, a stranger, smile and nod at me in the parking garage.
Oh, I did regret that moment of failing to respond energetically with a nod, a smile. Maybe I was somewhat smiling, or energetically glowing; I don’t know. Nodding is not a customary habit for me, but smiling is certainly becoming one. I exist to bless – everyone. Everyone is precious, so I regret not recognizing another precious soul with a symbolic affirmation.
I have found that I only need to repeat the I AM as mantra when my consciousness needs some prodding to rise up. Visualizing the beautifully-opened petals of the thousand-petalled lotus with the pearl of the Bindu chakra above can also maintain this consciousness, once one has attained it.
It seems that the more we exist to bless others, the more blessed we become. Affirming “I AM” lightly with our mind allows us to be aware of a larger circle of reality, without engaging the left-brain, goal-oriented mind that becomes so easily attached to outcomes based on our behaviors.
I AM. I exist to bless, and I AM one with the I AM who blesses me; therefore, I exist in a state of trust. As I trust I AM, I allow peace to pervade my being. As I remain “affectionately detached,” to quote Ravindra Kumar, from Kundalini for Beginners, I allow life to flow and to unfold as is needed, rather than controlling it with my ego.
I rejoice. I AM grateful. I AM blessing. I trust. I AM blessed.
I allow myself to empty, to allow consciousness to flow through me; in doing so, I become more easily aware of those who need my blessing. I AM, and my activity is blessing.
May you be blessed by the I AM presence within you,